I said a prayer,
then meditated.
Tea brewed with
Orange Pekoe teabags
is hot, dark, and ready.
While out for a walk,
I bought chewing gum
from a vending machine
near the main railway station.
I chewed gum all the way home.
Through the window,
children are playing.
I realize something
is bothering me.
I do not share the joy
of playing children.
Instead, I'm on retreat,
as ice cubes crack
with the heat of the tea,
before I sit at the typewriter.
~ Mainz, Germany, May 30, 1977
Tag: Writing
Something Is Missing
What is life? But then who am I to ask? I am a grown person, not married. I mastered the art of survival. I lead a good life, or so they tell me. Yet am I really living? I am not sure. The plans I make are hollow, lacking companionship. At least I am planning... My mind is active, yet something is missing. Something is missing... ~ Mainz, Germany, Jan. 14, 1979
Paul VI has Passed
The Pontiff passed to the other side. I saw him in the Vatican and smiled, Grace and power of the Word flowing, Energizing all of us in an audience. The Vicar of Christ, they proclaimed! Such a thought to modern man In a world of skepticism and doubt, The Vicar of Christ! Today begins the ritual, With closed doors and smoke from the tower. People will look on and wonder, What is the relevance of this? I long ceased attempts To understand the mystery And now live in its light. Would have it no other way. The Pontiff passed to the other side. Again I am smiling. Grace and power of the Word flowing, Energizing all of us in audience. ~ Mainz Germany, August 7, 1978
Where Today’s Road Might Take Us
I walk with confidence. Hand outstretched, I greet you. Let us shake hands And speak, For who knows Where today's road might take us? I came with purpose. Mind intent, I know why I came. Let us bargain And deal, For who knows Where today's road might take us? ~ Mainz, Germany, March 18, 1979
Writing Through Winter

Writing daily may not be good for us. When I write for days in a row, I find myself withdrawn into the world of my book. Everything with which I engage in real life — every person , document, artifact, memory — becomes viewed through the project lens. It can be hard to differentiate reality from the version of it I seek to narrate. It has made it difficult to get along some days.
If I read a book, I am thinking about how the author’s approach could be used or avoided in mine. If I read a memoir, my page-by-page reaction is about how good or bad each choice by the author may be. The same thing happens with a work of art or piece of music. It is a deep immersion filter necessary to the creative process.
Writing can be addictive. When writing and re-writing a passage, there can be a dopamine surge in our brains. I feel a release once a passage gets edited and I can stand up and stretch. It is difficult to tell where habits end and addiction begins.
Most days, I get ideas. If my desktop is booted, I go to the manuscript and work the idea into the narrative. If my CPU is turned off, I jot a note in my mobile device to come back to it. It seems improper to live like this. Alternatively, it one hella way to live.
Perhaps if I could see the book’s endpoint it would be easier to cope. I am beginning to yearn for the next project. Spring is coming and the garden will take more time, breaking the daily writing cycle. That could be good or bad. The trouble is, when I’m writing daily for long shifts, it is hard to break away from it. Living a normal life is made more difficult by addiction to writing.
Until I finish the first draft I’ll continue withdrawing into my book’s world. It should make the writing better. Hopefully people will recognize me when I emerge on the other side.
Mixing In Around Town
One election cycle I volunteered on the arrangements committee for the Democratic County Convention. The chairperson passed around a sign-up sheet. When it came to me, I noticed the previous signature was Iris DeMent. I looked to my right and the diminutive singer-songwriter was there, paying attention to the agenda. That’s how things work in Iowa City: the famous among us appear frequently, without apparent structure. I resisted going fan girl over DeMent because she obviously came to help organize the convention. I then turned my attention to the speaker as well
One day I was walking east on Jefferson Street near the Pentacrest. Coming toward me on the sidewalk was an older gent in an overcoat. Once he got closer, I saw it was James A. Van Allen, who discovered the radiation belts that bear his name. He must have come from work at the physics and astronomy department housed in what today is called Van Allen Hall. It was just another day in the county seat.
When I had classes in the English Philosophy Building, chances were I’d run into an author. I saw William Styron there. I believe John Irving as well. One of my undergraduate teachers was David Morrell, who wrote the book First Blood. He was proud of the novel then and had sold the film rights. He officed in EPB as a faculty member for sixteen years.
I ran into Donald Justice once at the UPS Store. He was shipping some books to his new home in Chapel Hill, North Carolina. He didn’t want to carry them on the airplane. I didn’t know him, but he was instantly recognizable because of who he was.
When Louise Nevelson donated the sculpture Voyage to the University of Iowa, I stopped by the Lindquist Center to have a look soon after it was installed. The artist happened to be there inspecting the sculpture in its new space. She approved.
Political figures passed through Iowa City when the state held first in the nation precinct caucuses from 1972 until 2020. Politicians could be found at the grocer, the hardware store, or at just about any public space. It was hard to avoid them. When John Edwards was running for president, he stayed at the hotel on the pedestrian mall and roamed the area, speaking with locals. He’d been cheating on his wife at the time, and the hotel room might have been intolerable with such a thing hanging over him during his presidential campaign.
Soon after the Patient Protection and Affordable Care Act was signed into law, President Barack Obama gave a speech at the Field House. His motorcade then made an unannounced stop at Prairie Lights Bookstore. The visit gained him a lot of publicity. It was another day in the life of Iowa City.
There were countless arranged events, but that’s par for the course at a state university. I met Hal Holbrook, Tillie Olsen, and others too numerous to count. Vance Bourjaily, Paul Engle, Christopher Merrill, and others connected with the Writers Workshop were a constant presence. Perhaps my favorite event was hearing Saul Bellow read from Something to Remember Me By in Macbride Hall.
James Laughlin, the founding publisher of New Directions, and publisher of William Carlos Williams, held an event at the Lindquist Center. He recalled one of his last meetings with Williams’ spouse, Flossie, before she died.
I never felt too special by these associations. It was more that I was cognizant of living in a society where famous people did too. In Iowa City, there aren’t that many places to be, so we encountered each other.
This is the Iowa City I came to know as I began graduate school in 1979.
~ Excerpt from a work in progress
Book Review: Doggerel

How does an artist survive and thrive in a highly competitive creative environment? Produce a book like Doggerel by Martha Paulos. More than thirty years after publication, it seems fresh and holds interest.
The linocuts in this book are compelling and well-executed. The poems written by their respective (famous) authors add to the linocuts. Nothing about this book is a hagiography of dogs and that seems to be the point. The book is funny, and based in a society the reader can understand. Who hasn’t been chased by a dog while riding a bicycle?
Linocuts take more time to produce than other media. Paulos’ high level of technical craftsmanship made it worth our time to appreciate her art.
Recommended for people working toward a career in creative endeavors. Also for anyone interested in linocuts. If a person collects dog stuff, they should get a copy for Doggerel’s uniqueness.
Last Month of Winter

Despite recent rain, snow remains piled around the yard. It felt like spring for a few days, yet it’s clear another month remains in winter. I’m okay with that. We need a hard freeze to kill off bugs and stop the sap flow in our fruit trees for the best pruning. I’m getting a lot done just by staying indoors most of the week.
I went to the home, farm and auto supply store to buy collard seeds. They were out. The cashier caught me up on gossip at my former employer. Two of my managers had tested positive on a newly implemented random drug test program and were fired. The store was busy for a Thursday morning. I bought some okra, tomatillo, scallop squash, and leek seeds.
I asked a farmer friend if they had extra collard seeds, and they do. I’ll pick them up over the weekend, maybe today.
My seedlings are taking shape. Plenty of kale (four varieties), broccoli, and cabbage (two varieties) started. It took forever, but my first stevia seeds finally sprouted this morning. Those are Zone 9, but we plan to keep them inside the house. My second wave of onions sprouted fine and are growing. Should be ready to plant them in April.
The concept of my greens patch is to have a lot of Winterbor and Redbor kale with a mixture of other greens like chard, tatsoi, pac choi, and others. If I had a dozen collard seeds, I’d hope for 5-6 seedlings. Main uses will be cornbread and collards from fresh, stir fry, and an ingredient in canned vegetable broth, and soup. If I had an abundance, I’d give the popular surplus away. I’ll de-stem and freeze whole leaves for winter. It is great fun to smash the plastic bag of frozen leaves to smithereens with my fist just before adding them to soup.
Regular readers may notice the poetry I posted. I appreciate the views. These are poems found in my files from the 1970s when I wrote more poetry. I’ve been lightly editing before posting them here. There are way more bad poems than good in what I’m finding. I also found poetry I wrote in high school My teacher used copious amounts of red ink to critique them. There was not much usable in that batch from 1967.
Posting poetry has given me relief from writing this blog. The number of views has been good, so the endeavor has been worthwhile. I’ll keep it up until I run out of old poems.
During the last month, I added more than 26,000 words to my autobiography. The processing of old documents and files is becoming established. By the time the first draft is finished, I should surpass 200,000 words. I’m more than halfway there. 200k is too long for this book, so I’ll have to edit. I’m won’t get carried away with editing until I go through the remaining boxes of artifacts. I have been constantly finding important memories. Going through the process helps me understand more about myself and how I grew up and lived. I’m satisfied with the progress, although presently awash in memories.
Time to get after today’s work. Another round of seeding, a trip to the eye glasses store and more work on our shared project list. Best wishes for a relaxing and productive weekend!
Bix Festival
Jazz flows across the Mississippi. A polite and encouraging announcer presents: a businessman from Davenport, a chiropractor with his brother from Sacramento, a lawyer from Moline, a Catholic priest from Argentina, and a band leader from Orlando. They will play jazz. "The way it is supposed to be played," he said. "The way Bix would have liked it." I wander the levee toward the roller dam where water churns. A collector, steeped in passion, and at home, makes piles of Beiderbecke 78s... He might say, to the gathered musicians, "These songs sound mighty good," yet prefer the dust and scratches of his collected disks. Water churns through the dam. I consider when there was no jazz to remember, before the grid of streets and buildings, and return to a native place. In a heartbeat of clarity and intuition I see... famous forebears surveying the plats... and wonder what happened to Black Hawk's bones. While jazz flows across the river. ~ Undated from some summer in the 1970s
Red Sky at Dusk
Red Sky at Dusk A redness fills the room where I spent hours practicing guitar. It is the setting sun refracting its rays. Securing my thermal blanket, I rest in bed. With or without a red presence, I'll close my eyes and ears, leaving me with memories... To dream... of musical notes infused with red sunsets. ~ Undated from the mid-1970s
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